She learned to love him before he thought it was even possible,
so he didn’t have a chance to hide & mess it up &
while it was a little scary at times, mainly he could not
even imagine the world without her there.
Leaving a trail of destruction behind her
even though her current affirmation is happy happy joy joy.
Remember to use positive affirmations.
I am not a dork is not one of them.
portable fires of hell in case people seem to be having too good a time
A few said they’d be horses. Most said they’d be some sort of cat.
My friend said she’d like to come back as a porcupine.
I don’t like crowds, she said.
Pools of Light
My favorite time of day is just at dark when all thoughts
of what must be done stop & small pools of light
come alive on tired faces everywhere.
He said he was followed around by a cloud of electrons that knew what he was thinking. I’ve given up lying, he said & then he pointed over his shoulder. What’s the point? They just go & tell everybody the truth anyway. It sounds worse than it is, he said. Once you forget how to do it, you think up better things to do with your time.
She had a big coat with pockets she filled with crackers & cheese & little wrapped chocolates in case (she said) she ever got trapped too far from a convenience store. I don’t take civilization for granted, she said.
The plumber was digging around in the pipes & he saw something shine in the muck & it turned out to be the soul of the last tenant. He gave it to me & I said I wonder how we can return it & he shrugged & said he found stuff like that all the time. You’d be amazed what people lose, he said.
Place to Fly
She kept asking if the stories were true. I kept asking her if it mattered. We finally gave up. She was looking for a place to stand & I wanted a place to fly.
Place by the Sea
He kept a piece of algae behind his ear to remind him of his roots. A million years ago every place was a little place by the sea, he would say & my mind would go blank & I would swim through the day without a care in the world & it all seemed so familiar that I knew I would go back someday to my own little place by the sea.
I’ve found it’s best to leave the hard moral questions to them what has hard morals, he said.
I can’t take a bath, he said, or the piranhas will get me. Don’t worry about that, I said, Piranhas only eat clean people. You’ve got nothing to fear.
This is a barrel filled with fish bones & pieces of old rubber cement & it smells like a pineapple milkshake. I have no explanation for why this is so. Chemistry was never my strongest subject.
Pillar of Flame
One summer night, we took my parents’ grill & we put in some sticks & paper & soaked the whole thing in lighter fluid & then my friend turned on his shortwave radio & we listened to some scientist in Houston who was saying where Apollo was at that moment & at the exact time it went over us, we lit the stuff in the grill so the astronauts would look out & see this light & they’d say ‘What the hell is that?’ & we danced around the pillar of flame & sparks laughing wildly because while the astronauts were out there unlocking the mysteries of the universe, we were back home in Chicago making more of them.
Your cat seems very healthy,
I said to her.
That is not a cat,
That is a pig
in cat’s clothing.
I finally got to exactly where I wanted to be,
she said, so why won’t all these growth experiences
go away & leave me alone?
standing on the shoulders of midgets, so even though she sees farther than most every one of her acquaintance, it’s still mostly the crotches of big people
I don’t want another opportunity to learn & grow, she said. I just want to eat crackers & watch Oprah & pet my cat.
There was a whole world here once, she said, but some of the smaller parts left on personal business & it’s not that easy to find replacements.