After his father died he carried his life more gently & left an empty space for the birds & other creatures.
He told me the best way to make coffee was to add an egg, so I did & he looked at the strands floating in his cup & decided to have tea instead.
I’m not that good at live & let live, she told me, when it’s just as easy to avoid & then I don’t even have to think about it.
I get along better with my relatives, he said, now that most of them are dead. (Big rocks so they won’t be able to get out early)
I try & get a lot of living in early in the morning before everyone else gets up, because after that, it doesn’t seem so much like living as it does putting up with stuff.
My great uncle shot & killed his own brother for disturbing the peace & I wonder if anyone ever tried to quiet his deep deep sorrow. Duty isn’t consolation enough.
Dropping Like Flies
I like people until they give me reason not to, she said. Some days they just drop like flies, though, she added.
It’s the only time I feel like me, she said, & everyone else just thinks it’s dress-up.
I mainly want someone to tell me I’m right & then pay me, he said. Is that too much to ask?
& I said as long as you’re living in a dream world, you might as well make it work for you.
I can read minds, she said & I said, OK & she said, Do you want to know what you’re thinking? I said no thank you. I don’t do stuff like that on weekends.
You’re lucky, she said. You’ll only get more distinguished as you get older.
I think if I was a woman, he told me, I’d have sex a lot more than all the women I know & I’d definitely stay away from people like me & my friends
Discovered the Moon
When I first discovered the moon, he said, I gave it a different name. But everyone kept calling it the moon. The real name never caught on.
It’s hard to believe anything I say, she told me, because I was there & I have a vested interest in being right.
Disappearing Act (aka Magical Thinker)
Can make stuff magically disappear, especially if it’s got a lot of butter & sugar in it
The day he first told me he was starting to disappear I didn’t believe him & so he stopped & held his hand up to the sun & it was like thin paper in the light & finally I said you seem very calm for a man who is disappearing & he said it was a relief after all those years of trying to keep the pieces of his life in one place. Later on, I went to see him again & as I was leaving, he put a package in my hand. This is the last piece of my life, he said, take good care of it & then he smiled & was gone & the room filled with the sound of the wind & when I opened the package there was nothing there & I thought there must be some mistake or maybe I dropped it & I got down on my hands & knees & looked until the light began to fade & then slowly I felt the pieces of my life fall away gently & suddenly I understood what he meant & I lay there for a long time crying & laughing at the same time.
I don’t know how long I can do this, he said. I think the universe has different plans for me & we sat there in silence & I thought to myself that this is the thing we all come to & this is the thing we all fight & if we are lucky enough to lose, our lives become beautiful with mystery again & I sat there silent because that is not something that can be said.
Thinks about moving to someplace else where everything is different enough to be fun again.
Detach with Love
has detached with love so many times that her hair has started to fall out in clumps
Destiny? There’s only your time & then there’s not-your-time, he said. All the rest is made up to keep you busy.