There has never been a day when I have not been proud of you, I said to my daughter, though some days I’m louder about other stuff so it’s easy to miss that.
I sometimes wake in the early morning & listen to the soft breathing of my children & I think to myself, this is one thing I will never regret & I carry that quiet with me all day long.
Are you a princess? I said & she said I’m much more than a princess, but you don’t have a name for it yet here on earth.
I wouldn’t mind being grownup, she told me, if I didn’t have to get up & be grumpy right away every morning.
When I was 5, he said, my family forgot & left me at the fair. I wandered around in the bright sounds & smells of hot sawdust & cotton candy for hours. It was already too late by the time my parents found me. I haven’t been fit for decent society since.
There are lives I can imagine without children but none of them have the same laughter & noise.
I always wanted to invent something that would move around & make funny noises & would change the world as we know it & I forgot all about that until we had kids & now I see I came pretty close.
What are you doing? I said. I’m invisible, he said, Do I have to spell everything out for you all the time? & since he was invisible, I decided I could ignore that.
The first time his laughter unfurled its wings in the wind, we knew that the world would never be the same.